just a thought

--morning,   barry's at the bank.

it seems to me that everyone has a couple of things that, for no apparent reason, have stuck in their memories. little things from childhood that don't sit quite right in the mind or are somehow ominous. i have a couple of memories that fall into this category and i think about them often. just little things that make me wonder--people who seemed to be around my childhood house a lot for a short amount of time and then all but disappeared. i think maybe that parents make decisions about a lot more than they choose to tell their children, and i think that's obviously necessary, but i don't think they bank on their kids remembering the numerous unexplained happenings that, when we were young, could be skirted over easily enough and without dishonesty.

i don't know why i'm talking about this, it was just something i was thinking about the other day in the shower (i do most of my serious thinking in the shower, hot water is like steroids for my brain, sometimes the ideas are actually worth remembering, most of the time, i'm better off just letting them go). so yes, i was thinking about it and it seems that there are a handful of things that i'll just never have explained. i could never ask why a certain friend of the family disappeared or why, ominously enough, we suddenly weren't allowed to go to so-and-so's house to play any longer. that's alright, it feels good to have deep secrets in a family, and some things are better left lying.